So 2011 is finally over. I say ‘finally’ coz it was a pretty awful year for me. Completely sucky, actually. As always, the start of a new year is a time for reflection – what went well, what didn’t, what we learned, and what we’re striving for in the New Year.
2011 was such a whirlwind for me, it’s really hard to sort out what’s mine and what’s external. In some respects I feel I lost myself a bit this last year. Part of that, I think, is not spending as much time reflecting, blogging and working on myself. I got caught up in events in my life, perhaps not surprisingly. Anyway, here goes for a recap of 2011.
My year in review
I learned that some friends can be relied upon, and some can’t. And sometimes it’s not how you expect it to be, though perhaps if you’d looked harder you might have seen what’s what a lot earlier. Oh, the power of hindsight!
I learned we can’t have everything we want in life, no matter how much we wish for something or how hard we try.
I learned that I’m really cr@p at dealing with my emotions. I also learned this is why I have a well-oiled self-destruct switch.
I learned, and moved a step towards accepting that I may always be FITH. I don’t like it, but part of me’s just giving in to it.
I learned that my life is much nicer without my father around, but that he can still haunt me from the grave.
I think I also learned that it’s our relationships in life that really matter. More on that in a not-to-distant future post.
And that we should never take our loved ones for granted. The small stuff really doesn’t matter.
So, on to my hopes for 2012.
My biggest hope is that I get more (quality) time with Mum. This is obviously something I have little control over. I’ll find out next week what the prognosis is.
I’d also like to spend a bit more time on “me” – physically, as well as emotionally. So fingers crossed for more blog posts this year, peeps!
And I want to spend more time doing creative things – they’re great for my soul. Photography, and most recently knitting.
I’d like to keep my job. I’d like to get better at managing my job with a completely out of control and somewhat f***ed up life. Or give up completely.
I’d like a holiday. And world peace. Not too much to ask for, is it?