This has been a week from hell, hence my absence from the blogosphere. Apologies to all of you for not replying to your comments in my previous post – I truly appreciate them, but haven’t been in the space to think about anything this week. Except one thing.
Things at work have come to a big pointy head with my boss (yes, that boss). To cut a long story short, he effectively offered me a demotion unless I could guarantee I would not get sick or take any more sick leave. (WHAT THE…? Yes, I KNOW…)
He said that the work I’ve been doing is good, but I get sick a lot and can’t attend work, which has a negative impact on him and people in my team. He said he doesn’t think I’m malingering, and understands I’m dealing with multiple health issues, none of which he suspects are helped by the stress of the work environment. He did question my commitment to the job – actually to the “game” that comes with the job – but to his credit he apologised for making me feel devalued and deskilled.
I’m torn between transferring to another area, which could be a good outcome for me (though not at a lower salary), and fighting this out. I need to investigate this properly but my initial reading of our anti-discrimination laws suggests it’s illegal for him to demote me like this.
My therapist thinks I should: (a) take this bull by the horns and wrestle his illegal a$$ to the ground, or (b) take a leave of absence and start working for myself, which I think is what I want to do in the longer term but really don’t feel ready for yet, or (c) take a job in another area while I continue to look for something else. Who knows?
I have ridden the full gamut of emotions this week, from hysteria to anger to … I don’t really know what. I am completely exhausted and totally confused.