I know we are all going through this odd thing of trying to feel… or not feel… or feel in a “normal” way. For me this comes after 38 years of squashing down anything that might be described as a “feeling” and drifting through life with an outer shell of anaesthesia, while underneath I was a stormy mess of “stuff” I didn’t have names for.
Yesterday I was fiddling with the Punkymoods widget thingamy and realised that still sometimes I can’t put a name to what I’m feeling. Going through the options at Punkymoods, it’s all just a blur, until I come across the one that truly resonates. That’s how I got to worried yesterday.
I think I know the name of this emotion I’m feeling today. I think it’s called… h a p p i n e s s.
It’s a very odd feeling. I haven’t had this for… I don’t know how long. I’m not sure what to do with it.
I’m not arguing, but I will try to enjoy it and hope that it’s still there tomorrow. 😀