This was my therapist’s conclusion when we discussed the situation with p-doc today. Thank god for that. I was starting to think it was me, all me, something terribly wrong with me.
My therapist said she only suggested I consider staying with him because she wanted me to have someone while she’s away; didn’t want me to be without anyone while she’s on holiday.
We talked about most of the things that p-doc said and did, and the way I’ve felt after my last two sessions with him. My therapist said she’s loathe to criticize another therapist, but admitted she thought some of his approaches were “unusual” and “inappropriate”. Thank all the copulating implausible deities for that.
She concluded that if p-doc is making me more vulnerable, and more unstable, and making me feel worse about myself (which he is), then … “don’t go back”.
I felt so much stronger after my session tonight – the complete opposite to how I felt with p-doc. I’m sure she was trying to bolster me prior to our break, but whatever her intention, it worked.
I am strong. I am powerful. And I can’t wait to ring p-doc tomorrow to cancel my next appointment. 🙂
Thank you all again for your love and support. I really am truly grateful.