Left a phone message for you today. Haven’t heard from you. Dark voice says you hate me; rational voice says you’re busy. Hoping rational voice right.
Hard day. Hard few days. Struggling with dark thoughts. Exacerbated by mother and some stupid shoes. (And you said I wasn’t crazy???)
Nearly did the unthinkable today, but stepped away from the edge (and I mean that literally).
You’ve asked before what stopped me? Silly thing – you say you see something worthwhile in me, even if I don’t. May be one day I will.
Rational voice saying I did a good thing. Showed strength and courage. Dark voice not happy.
Tempted to cancel phone message. Can’t bear the thought of you not returning my call. Easier to imagine you don’t hate me, than to know that you do.